photograph of a wooden floor
Cedar Chest, for Frank Raymond

The cedar chest Granddaddy made
Four months before he died
Sits in his workshop
Gathering dust
Waiting for me to bring it home

But there’s not enough room in my house
Or my life
Not yet
For a reminder of what I lost
when a broken vessel took him out of reach
It’s too soon for the absence of tears
when I think of the smooth wood
Sanded, outside and in,
By hands rough from years at the lumber yard

Time has not taken me far enough from January
That I can bear the smell of cedar and varnish
Or flannel shirts and aftershave
So for now the chest sits
And patiently waits
For me to bring it home
And fill it with as much love
As he put into it
I Leave Doors Open

I leave doors open
on the off chance
that opportunity
wants to come in 
without knocking

I leave windows up
for fairies
and hope
and desperation

I leave the flue open
for obvious reasons

But drawers must be closed
for order
for appearances
to keep the secrets in
and eyes out
Cicadas

Cicada screams
saw into the night
thunder rumbles
and rumbles 
across a gray green black sky     
then an eerie silence
since they know
what is coming
and when it is safe

that same quiet 
after the call
driving to the ER
knowing I’ll be met with the howl
and crackling of ozone
as my child’s mind
veers off course
battered by wind and stinging rain